I'm supposed to...

So today I'm aware of an inner conflict when I meditate on my future vision by visualizing my vision board. There is a part of me that is all in on this vision of success. And another part that is deeply resisting- some aspect of myself is deeply afraid of this future.

One technique I'm fond of is a form of stating what you want then state the opposite, here's how the inner dialogue works:

I want to manifest my future vision.
I'm choosing to resist this future vision because...
I'm not supposed to be successful doing what I do

That's the phrase that has come to me. My future vision is hitting up against an internal barrier in the form of "I'm supposed to..."

So what's going on?

So I go into channel mode, and what comes through is an inner conflict related to my "supposed to" role vs my "want to" role. Now, pretty much everyone deals with this to some extent- we're all running around with unconscious loyalties to the past.

At an energetic level I'm aware of needing my parents "permission" to live my "want to" role, for them to accept that I'm breaking out of the way things have been in the past. And part of that dialogue is helping "them" that this path is not only my own highest potential but also my family's collective highest potential.

As I move into a life of greater joy, success, fulfillment, purpose, light... that energy becomes available to the whole family. And that is the greatest gift I can truly give.